So I believe that I am the only other member of the trans collab channel other than Karl who has met the other members too.
This of course takes me to TDoR. It might have been brief but I met the London Collabers. Jamie, who is rather charming and pretty fantastic (darling!). Jenn who is quite beautiful, shame I didn't get to talk to you much. And Avery who it was something of a brief encounter with, but was polite and I get the impression all 3 of them are decent people. And it was nice to actually meet them in person. It is strange how your presumptions and views can be massively altered by meeting someone in person. I guess when Jamie first asked me to be part of the collab I was a little concerned that I would be rejected or whatever. And I guess the worry kind of kept me back a step or two. But meeting one person from above and even just exchanging pleasantries with them, to me felt like a massive step in a better direction.
I guess TDoR was an important thing to experience for several reasons. But I don't want to focus on the negatives as such. I think the positives, of fighting for our existence and place in life is important. To remember that it is lucky when we don't lose a friend and to remember and morn the ones we unfortunately have lost. Mind it shocked me on the amount of people I was informed where female presenting. And how many fell close to my age. It was scary if I am honest.
As I have already mentioned elsewhere Yesterday I went to my second Gender Clinic Appointment. It was with the second Psychiatrist and was very different from the first. Not so perverse for one! And the appointment was more focused on me as a person, and how I viewed myself etc rather than how and what I thought it was that made me trans. It was intense in a very positive way, even if I got the impression that some of my answers were a little surprising. Mainly when he asked about what I wanted from the Clinic. I told him for me, I needed to learn how to pass and access voice coaching as that was the priority right now. I got the impression he seemed a little surprised that I didn't go HORMONES!!!!
I want to end this by saying I feel like I am one of the luckiest people ever.
I have wonderful friends.
I have a good future on its way.
And the most amazing Girlfriend I could ever dream of.
