Why?
Mental health, of all things. I can't even get a solid date for when they will see me. Any time between 8 and 32 weeks! Great. Yet I was "told" that I would be shot up the list if my situation became desperate. Joy, if I want Wigan PCT to help, I have to be institutionalised.
People wonder why I think I am a freak.
I am one in 7 million-ish. 0.1% of the worlds population are classed as being Asexual.
I get nothing from sex bar negatives. I am starting to go mad.
People don't seem to understand what Asexuality is.
It isn't abstinence. It isn't celibacy.
It isn't an aversion to sex.
For me it is the fact that that part of me, is none existent. What small sex drive I have exists because of having the wrong set of genitals.
But having forced myself to have sex, well it made me feel so down. Sex is something unnatural to me, and I am no prude. Just sex, is well pointless. There is no enjoyment, nothing positive for me there.
This makes me even more lonely. Few people seem to understand that, I am not abstaining, it isn't aversion. I just can't do sex. It makes me feel uncomfortable doing even cybersex if I am going to be beautifully honest.
Fuck.
