Not unless you really put a lot of effort in.
Change the shape of one or both then yes things do fit together.
Why am I talking about this?
Because no matter where I go, it seems I am not meant to fit in.
Bullying drives me away.
Lack of assistance.
Lack of interest.
Destruction of friendships.
And many other reasons.
So yeah I am an Outlaw. Chased away be metaphorical mobs with pitchforks and torches.
It has happened a fair few times. Online and Off.
People call it victimising. Or demonising. To be frankfully honest. It is bullying. That is all. Ugly, nasty, pathetic bullying. I have had that all my life. From everywhere. I have been muzzled out of friendship circles, by people close to me. I have been accused of terrible things, just because people don't like me.
I am not sure why. I know I am a little different, a little strange maybe. I know I am opinionated and can be argumentative. But I am caring, loving, loyal, dependable, I try my best to help everyone. Yet I have learnt that politeness is a crime!
I don't think people see how hard it is for me to fit in anywhere, and I have bloody well tried. I tried playing sports, got laughed at. I have tried doing all the things that young males are meant to do. It never worked. Maybe because I have never really been a young male, but that was an issue I only really worked out back in October. So much has happened since then. And I have begun to actually accept that I am Asexual. As much as I have tried to deny it, I know I can't.
I have let my gender set and manifest as it has. I know I am stuck somewhere being Agendered but leaning towards being feminine. I am happy there, my pronouns are female. But again it links back to the title. I don't quite fit into any of societies boxes.
To be entirely honest there is one place I have found that I do fit in. B.yoU and Open Minds Group. I have kind of fitted in, I get on with most of the members. I am allowed to be myself, and sometimes encouraged to do so. I feel happy because I kind of have people I can fit in with. Those groups have given me a place I feel welcome. That and there are 15 people in the last 15 months that I have learnt that I can depend upon. Those guys mean the entire planet to me.
They represent all the good things in life.
They give me hope and the strength to keep fighting, and forever moving forward.
