Call them selfish, and other things. Make them into a monster. People to seem to do that, to me a lot.
Yeah I am far from perfect. And yes over the last 6 months I have really needed support. Probably more than I should have needed. But then there has been way too much fucking shit for me alone to deal with. Most of who will read this blog, will know bits of it. Yeah I got my heart broke, I was betrayed and have had massive amount of shit from some fucking woman. Yeah I have been broken, bullied and driven to the edge.
People have fallen out of my life. Because I got trapped in a cloud of darkness. Yet talking about my problems, made me selfish? Did it not occur that I needed help?
Yet there are some people. They let me depend on them, they set out to help me, because they saw the signs. 15 of the greatest people on the face of this planet. I could name them, but I hope that they follow my blogs, because they should now who they are.
You guys have given me every chance and reason to survive and keep going.
I love you all.
Some I don't get to talk to half as much as I would like. And I don't get to see you as much as I really want to.
But small steps, I am trying my best to change some of the negatives about myself and my life. But thanks, for being there, all of you.
I wouldn't be here with out you.
And to those who gave up or abandoned me. I forgive you for your ignorance, if you can forgive me for becoming so self absorbed.
