Outcast - somebody who has been rejected by a group or by society.
That is me. An Outcast, a radical and a malcontent.
I know all of this, part of the reason I cause so many problems for people, and argue and things. I have lived a life full of destruction and wrath. And now it seems that it is come full circle.
I think my diabetes has begun to fail me. I am losing my sense of touch. And it is still impossible thanks to the bloody cuts that where made at the start of the year to see the diabetic team. I have been waiting since Jan to see them! And I have to wait till November! For Fuck Sake!
Most people bearly know me if I am honest. The few I let close well, don't get the full story. But for years I have been battling many deamons. Depression, the diabetes and gender et all. I don't know how much more resources I have left. I have been over stretched and all but drained.
And then there is the social part. I miss my friends, yet I am pushing them away. Again several reason why. But I am not even going to say what they are.
I am just sorry.
