Saturday, 28 August 2010

Difficulties of understanding what I am at times.

So pride.
A celebration and a protest and a demonstration for everything Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual and Trans related. It also covers pretty much everything else, Questioning, curious and Queer.

But something is always missing.

Asexuality. Or Demisexuality or nonesexuality. Whatever it is called, it isn't recognised at any pride event I have been too. In fact it is bearly recognised anywhere.

I more often than not I say Queer when people ask. Because it is so difficult to explain what I am. But there are reasons why I am what I am. I am Asexual. A fair few people have told me that I can possibly by Ase. That because I have a sex drive of sorts, because I have had sex etc that I can't possibly be Asexual. Well having looked into it a lot, I have learnt that having a sex drive doesn't make me any less Ase, in fact not having one is a sign of a worse condition.

The fact of the matter is I am not comfortable being touched, in certain areas and on my bear skin etc. I love hugs and snuggling, kissing etc but not being touched. Some may find that weird, but there is also the fact that I have experienced no pleasure from sex or sexual acts, but I have from other sources.

I don't know, I just found it weird, that no one really cares, other than projects like AVEN and the Asexual Project on QYN, about the sexuality of Asexual people.

A mind that thinks is full of life.