"Revalations 21 6
It is done. I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End. To those who are thirsty I will give to drink without cost from the spring of the water of life."
A noble quote, even if it is from a dubious sauce, the bible.
Last few weeks I have been working through a massive degree of personal issues.
Issues to do with Gender Identity. And relationships with other people. I am never one to have an easy time and often make my own life more complex as I go through it.
Last night, I was filling my deed poll in, it was 4am-ish. I had something of a break down, just this massive rush of trangst and other things all at once. I had to think about every step, hair removal, voice coaching, surgeries and hormones. I had to think each and every step and how I would cope and change. In the end my mind, ever cold, calm and collected, won out. I am going to transition all the way, even if it takes me the next 10 years to do so. Why because I am female, and one day my body will match that too!
I will take care of the steps I can along the way, because I know I need to do something. So that is things such as Hair Removal and maybe Voice Coaching. I will be bring this up with the Psych at the end of the month.
Relationships
Every kind of them, from business to friends and family to lovers.
There is a massive overlap with transitioning and the interactions with other people. And of course having to go back and tell all the people I know and interact with that one my name and title have changed and two that yes, I am a girl and will transition as far and as possible over the next few years. This does make me worry about how people will see me as I progress along the road. I guess it is natural to worry a bit yeah?
A person can be like an island, seemingly alone in the ocean of their own thoughts, but deep down they are always connected to the people who matter to them.
