Is it a fear of the dark?
That people are naturally diurnal?
The media scaremongering about the levels of crimes that take place at night?
I don't think I ever have been scared of the dark, more enchanted about it, if anything.
I like the feel of moving unseen, and at night because of whatever reasons they have, people do move about less. And for someone with vairing levels of social anxiety the less people about the better. I guess the term cloak and dagger comes to mind.
There is something about walking alone at night, that is so peaceful. There is an odd beauty to seeing the moon shine from behind cobweb clouds. Or to here the sound of silence. Or to see it. I will admit I am somewhat nocturnal now, I find sleeping at night difficult, more so in the summer. Heat makes me uncomfortable.
I like the enmity that comes of being alone in the night, I feel safe. I don't feel the same effects of paranoia or anxiety. I don't get the same head aches I get from sunlight, which makes life harder. And I guess I tend to let my imagination run when I walk alone. I think and dream about stuff and I don't know feel a little happy.
People watching is interesting as it is, but the people you see at night are different, they have the shadow of cloak and dagger about them. Makes you wonder why people head out into the darkness, what purpose their journey has. My mind seems freer at night than due in the day, maybe this is what causes my insomnia, or has been caused by it.
Either way, I know I am more creative at night, and less so in the day. And when I can't sleep I tend to channel this into painting or writing or something else. I become more productive and tend to work harder because of it.
Maybe I have slipped into becoming completely Nocturnal and as such am finding it hard to go back to being diurnal. Maybe this is a problem to some people. But I would be one of those people happier to live the night shift. And maybe that is what I should be doing, looking for evening work maybe?
Hmm stuff to think about I guess.
