Did you watch it?
It is a song of mourning, a city destroyed viewed by one of the survivors of the race.
But she doesn't give up. She carries on and she fights.
But what would you do, if you lost everything?
Depression is a horrible thing. But I know full well you have to fight it, harder and harder. Last week, I nearly let it win. I nearly gave in last week. I was tearing myself apart for reasons I can't go into. Because I cannot right now.
But I am a fighter.
I don't give in.
I can't.
I was at Derby Pride on Saturday.
I recharged my batteries. So to speak. And I hung out with someone of the most fantastic People I have ever known. It made me realise that I have been through a number of hardships, but That I am a fighter, determined to get what I need and deserve out of life. I am Trans and I am Proud of that. I am not everyone's cup of tea, but I can actually say that I am proud and happy to be the person I am.
I am arrogant, I am depressive and I am some what possessive. But I am so much more. I am determined, obsessively observant, I care so much about some people, I am eternally fighting for not just me. I am fighting for those I love. Karl described me as somewhat of a Guardian Angel. Maybe that is my role in life. MY duty, the purpose I am here. And why suicide keeps failing.
I am one hell of a queer human being. But I will not be destroyed by anyone or anything, I will adapt and I will survive. I was born to do something and I personally will find out how and what it is.
Alone I may seem weak, but I have a family of friends behind me. They are incredible, every single one of them. And they are important to me. I will give the world for them.
Kara
Kallum
Sakura
Karl
Oliver
Charlie
Salina
Darren
Kellan
Charlotte
Between you guys, I have been kept going. Kept on this plain. I am not alone any more.
Thank you very much, for everything.
And the title of this song is important. Please listen.
