Tuesday, 13 July 2010

Stable

So it seems that moods have a big scale.

Hypermania
Mania
Hypomania
Stable
Hyperdepression
Depression
Hypodepression

In the last 36 hours.
I have been in all of them.
I haven't slept.

I am scared.
But more so, I am scared. Someone who is very possible the person I care about the most, is going to go through such a hard time.
And I have become so self-obsessed that I won't be able to help him. I feel so much for him. I care so much for him. he has saved me a few times. In fact many times.

I want to do what I can to help you.
But if I have what I fear I may have, I am not sure if I can?

I feel so small.

But Kallum, no matter what happens, I am here for you. I will do what I can to help you. I promise. Please know that I love you.