We compliment them, do our best to make them feel good about things.
Yet we lack the courage to just say, "hey I like you, like a lot."
There has been this guy, I have known him just over a year. He is one of the nicest and most honourable, handsome guys that I know.
Yet I couldn't ever tell him directly how I feel. Because one I don't think he feels the same way about me, and two he is just as shy as I am. Just one of those little issues of life I guess.
Anyway I have had a nightmarish trangsty day. Been he/Mr/Young man'ed all bloody day. I haven't felt male in a very very long time. Like since last August. I don't feel comfortable as the person I am. But then it hit me, I am not Mr Edward Terence Mawer. I haven't been for longer than I thought, nearly a whole year if I am honest. I am Mx Terran Alexandria Leslie Edwards.
And soon I shall be on paper!
Someday I need to actually to realise that I am the person that I make myself. Not the person made by others, or the person who expectations tried to create.
I am wholly my own creation, and I shall live my life as such.
