I have come to the conclusion that the people I used to go to for help with my problems are to wrapped up in their own lives right now. And why shouldn't they be, they need their happiness. I feel so lonely and so scared at times. And yeah I know I rant too much.
But I am falling apart.
Bitter-sweet destruction.
I tend to hold people away from myself, and help them as much as I can. But I tend to not accept help back. I just can't, it makes me feel selfish. But I am slowly giving ground.I have fought none stop for nearly 18 years.
I want help. I really want help. I know I need it. But where do I go to get it?
I just need to get help. I really need it.
But I don't want to have the worse happen....
I can't do that, I have seen what that is like, no way I can end up like that. Kel didn't come back right... :(
I am lonely
I am so scared.
